I was sick all of July with a nasty flu, lots of phlegm and coughing so I didn't make a recording so I didn't do my blog. I'm a horrible person. I know. I got my surgical consult done and I will be having chest surgery done. I'm on a bit of a self-imposed timeline. If I can't have it by November 1st, I won't have it until January. We'll be flying home for Christmas and if I'm not somewhat healed, and I don't really want to deal with it. If I can't hug my family that's going to suck. It can also cause issues during the flight, with the change in air pressure causing swelling in my chest or also something like blood clots. Not worth it to me, so I'm going to try my hardest to get in by Nov 1, and if not then I'll have to wait.
I've been hanging out with transguys more often, I wish I had some cismale friends so I could see how guys move and act more to help me watch and learn but I'm learning from guys who are learning from watching other guys, so it is what it is.
Anyway, I don't have much else to report at this time. On to stats.
STATS
Weight: 279 lbs
Libido: It's something I deal with on a daily basis, failure to 'complete the mission' leads to a lot of physical frustration. I've caught myself on a few different occasions fully staring at a woman's breasts... like there were magnets involved. Mostly my wife's but at least one or two other women at different times in the last two months. I've gotten mostly over it, but sometimes get caught off guard.
Skin: Still some on my back, mostly shoulder blades, but a lot coming in around my chin and especially towards the last week of my shot.
Hair: I feel it's getting thiner and it's falling out more. Making an appointment to get on Rogaine which is supposed to help with facial hair growth too.
Body Hair: Tummy is getting thick dark hair on the happy trail, but also hair around belly button. It's starting to creep up my chest and it's just under my breasts. My pores on my breasts are getting thicker, like they're getting ready for hair. My ass crack has gotten quite hairy, not my ass… just the crack. Leg hair is definitely darker, but not causing as many ingrown hairs. My pit hair no longer bothers me anymore.
Dosage: 250mg
Amount of time on T: 34 weeks
Build: Hips continue to melt away, arms are getting quite strong with no work. I've got more strength, can do pushups which I've never been able to do before and I'm feeling much more strong.
Menstruation: N/A
Energy Level: More energized, especially after meals. I definitely feel a surge of energy and if I don't eat, I feel weaker and more tired. I'm finding myself sometimes bored so I'll drop onto the ground and do some pushups just cause I can. I'm also wishing we lived on a bus route where the gym was more accessible because Shan's often gone with the car and I really feel compelled to go to the gym, but then she'll get home and I'll want to spend time with her so I don't end up going.
Voice: It's finally stopped cracking but seems to still be getting lower. I had a pretty massive flu for most of July, my excuse for not posting a blog, so my voice was manipulated by that and had very little talking range let alone singing. Now that I'm over the flu, I can sing more and have full talking range. I still sound female, but I can't do a high pitched voice... I try and it's like this empty space where the tone should be. I can pitch it lower and that's quite fun to do.
Misc: I haven't measured downstairs but it's definitely grown. I've actually also come to his point where a lot of my friends think I pass amazingly well but almost unanimously when I'm out I'll get "ma'am"-ed. It SUCKS. I'm fairly certain it's cause of the boobs so it kinda puts up this discomfort wall and probably makes passing worse. Hopefully this will be handled soon.
